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 This is the only time I really feel alive...




 Nine Inch Nails -The Only Time



When Hitusgi tears himself from his prey, he notices his companion Yomi is the only remains in the hallway. The other male is nowhere in sight.



"Where's he?" He asks.



It goes without saying who 'he' is referred to.



"He escaped." Yomi replies with out much of a care.



"Oh." That's the only response from Hitsugi, although perhaps they should have prevented Sakito from running through the door. Ruka most likely isn't going to be happy about that.



But in the next second, he shrugs this thought away. "Ruka will take care of this."



"Figured." Yomi responses just as causally, then both of them turn to face Ni~ya. They haven't done yet.



***



Darkness fills your vision at once, a sudden, harsh change from the infinite bright whiteness bearing down on you for so long. Darkness slips through your sense, filling you up from the inside as you fall.



It is just like drowning, but there's no water, there's only darkness choking you, making you suffer.



Like going through an Nearly Dead Experience, in the next second various images break through the darkness, flashing before your eyes.



The first thing you remember is who Ni~ya is. You remember what had happened between you and him.



He indeed is your friend, one of your best friends. The two of you know each other for so long, sharing more or less the same interests, always doing things together. At the beginning it is very innocent, but latter not any more.



Ni~ya told you that you had feeling for him. It is true while it isn't the entire truth. It would be a lie if you said you never knew Ni~ya had feelings for you, but for your own defense you had never thought neither of you would act upon this forbidden attraction, until this fatal day...



You still don't understand why you did this. The betrayal comes to you and at this very time it felt entirely painless to you when you betrayed your lover. You had given in without much struggle, you were like a man possessed, doing whatever your desire commanded you to do. Maybe you're just a horrible person, the cheating type.



You are not the person whom you think you are, nor does your lover.



You open your eyes, and the darkness fades away almost at once. You find you are lying face down on a hard wooden floor.



Wherever you are, you know you are not inside the maze where everything is nothing but white in color.



There is no time to be wasted, so you shoot up into a sitting position, taking in your surrounding as quickly as you can.



You appear to be in an apartment, just an ordinary apartment resided by a young man. You are sitting on the floor of a living room, in your line of vision you can see pieces of furniture, a few paperbacks and outdated magazines are lying on the carpet nearby.  



Quickly you look back at where you came from. In shock, you realize behind you is a spotless wall with cream colored wallpaper, there is no trace of the wooden door you had come through before you fall and hit the floor.



Again you scan the room for clue, only to find aside from the living room you are in. Under the grey twilight the room is bathed in, you see that there are only three doors within this apartment: a half opened door to what appears to be a small bathroom, a light colored door to an equally small bedroom, and finally a grey steel door opposite of where you're sitting. It doesn't take long for you to realize it has to be the front door.



You listen carefully for sound of moments  or another person's breathing. but your ears catch nothing but the sound of your own breathing. There is no sight of Ni~ya, no Yomi and Hitsugi bursting in to get you.



They must still be on the otherside.



Shivering you make yourself stand up at the center of the living room, you look at the desk nearby, and almost at once you find what you're looking for: picture frames.



You study those photos in the frames, you see your own face in many of those photos, you see different versions of yourself doing different things in those photos, taking pictures with different people who seemingly are your friends and family already you still can't recall any of them.



Looking around you, the surrounding looks...familiar to you, it feels almost like...home.



So it is really your home. The photos have proofed this. Turns out Ni~ya is right all along, this door is indeed the only thing that links us to where we came from. As weird as it sounds, it is the door which connected to your own apartment.



Once again your eyes fall upon the framed photos on the desk, at once you notice one photo in particular: it's a photo with you standing next to Ni~ya and some other people, everyone is smiling to the camera,  judging from the background of the photo, you and Ni~ya had been in some party.



You gasp, so it looks like it is also true that Ni~ya and you are friends for real. Those photos also proof that you do have loved ones, many of them. They are here, and they care about you.



Shifting your attention to the framed photo next to the one you're looking at, there are only two people in the photo: yourself and the dark haired man who is known as Ruka. Your captor.



The two of you were embracing each other while facing the camera when the photo was taken.



Sucking in a sharp breath, realization dawning upon you: so it also is true that Ruka and you have an relationship.



What more surprises are you going to discover next?



Then your glance falls upon a small digital clock sitting next to the series of framed photos. A clock! Finally a device which will inform you the time and the date!



However, in the next second your excitement quickly dies down as you notice the glass screen of the digital clock is blank, showing nothing. The battery had long ran out.



Questions whirling through your mind at once. What time is it? What day is it? And...why it is so quiet here?



Where did everyone go?



The last thought sends a chill down your spine, you need to go out, you need to find someone to inform them about Ni~ya. Ni~ya and you must have been missing for so long! Just...how long has Ni~ya been trapped that strange place? For how long you have been taken to there and gone from your friends and family? They must be worrying themselves half to death over your safety...



At the foot of the sofa nearby, you see a cell phone lying on the wooden flooring, you pick it up instantly, but you are not really surprised when the phone turns out dead, running out of battery like the small clock. You sigh, you had thought you can check the contact list in your cell phone and try to recall the people you once knew...



Since there isn't any option left, you move to the closed front door, opening it without any difficulty, and let yourself out of your apartment, and walk outside.



You are not ready to see what is really outside, though.



Once you step up to the hallway outside of your apartment, you find it odd to see there are ashes drifting from the mid air, and small pieces of rubbish lying on the floor. And the hallway is empty, it feels like no one else is there. Still, how can this be possible? There has to be some people still around, in their homes, walking along the hallways, on their way to work or to school?



Where did everyone go?



You begin to hesitate, but it isn't like you can just go back inside and pretend everything is alright, you still have to make contact with your loved ones, you still need to tell people about what had happened to Ni~ya.



You run down the stairs, going all the way down to the apartment building's lobby. Still on your way down you see no one in sight, not even the caretaker is there when you reach the lobby.



The smell of burnt things attack your nose at once the second you walk out of the building.



You look around, and for the first time you begin to notice things you had failed to see when you first came back.



How there's no sun in the sky.



How there is powder dust raining down from above, covering the streets and everything with flat surfaces with it.



How there is fire burning from somewhere far away, across the skyline of the city.



The buildings around you, they are now in ruin, as if they had been bombed in some way.



Dead trees lined along the broken sidewalk, their ruined branches reaching up to the sky like long bony fingers, reaching for help which will never come.



Various cars being burnt down to their steel skeletons, overturned and abandoned on the streets.



Still you see not a single soul when you are looking for someone to help you.



You try screaming for help, but you are only answered by your echoes.



The more you see, the more you feel like you are the only one left in the entire city. Although how can it ever be possible?



The air around you, it is filled with the acidly scent of burnt things and ash, choking you. It's as though the whole city had long been caught on fire, burning everything within it to ash.



What is going on? What had happened to your city? Your home? Where is everybody? What had happened to them? Where are them now?



***



You must have walked for hours, but everywhere you go, you see only lifeless ruins. No sign of life, no survivor, no one left to offer you help.



Everywhere you go, you see evidence of mayhem and destruction. It looks as though plague had broken out, as though a crisis had taken place here, as though wars had been taken place, driving everyone away.



No use trying to find help anymore no one is there. You come to realize this.



Giving up, you can only go back to the apartment building, where your home is---used to be.



But you don't even get to there before you spot a tall figure standing alone in the playground in front of the apartment building.



Something twitches in your chest when you come close enough to recognize the figure truly is the one you think he is: Ruka.



Once again, you can't even say you're taken by surprise, something in you has always known Ruka will be here. Things are far from finished between you and him,



With this thought in your mind, you walk straight up to him, there is no point hiding, if Ruka is here then it means he knows how to find you, all along. Beside, you do want some explanation. You have to know why the world has become something like this.



Your dark haired lover must have sensed your approaching as well, he crooks his head to one side, waiting for you with an unbearable expression on his face.



When you are finally face to face with him, you break the silence.



"Ruka..." you realize it's the first time you say his name in his presence, the sound of it sounds strange yet eerily familiar, at the same time.



"It isn't safe to be in here, you know it, right?"



Ignoring his question, you counter back with your own questions. "Ruka, what's going on? What've happened to me?"



Ruka keeps quiet.



"...and what are you, Ruka?"



His mask of impassiveness finally cracks, and Ruka finally reveals everything to you.



By willingly giving your memory back.



****



Unbeknownst to most people, there are many different realities, unseen and unaware by humans.



Aside from the human races, here are many different intelligent, humanlike species sharing our world, intelligent species who look outwardly like humans but not quite; creatures who possess abilities and talents normal humans simply don't have.



They have always lived among us, some of them are from our world, some aren't. Some even move between different worlds. Those different species have always been in hiding, keeping low profile, blending into human societies, living as one of our own. Still, they keep their own secrets. The biggest secret they have kept is: our world isn't the only world out there, there're different worlds and alternative realities overlaying with our world; loopholes, wormholes to allow travelers to come through.



And you had been in one of those alternative realities, with one of the members of those otherworldly species standing before you.



Your lover.




 "Oh, I honestly don't think Ruka is just 'people',pal."



Turns out your lover...he isn't human, the same like his 'friends', Yomi and Hitsugi aren't.



You had never known, could never have guessed what he really is, until it is too late. How could you have guessed the man you have fallen in love with isn't human? After all he had always been one of your friends, someone you think you can trust.



Everything had been fine, until he found you cheating on him...with your best friend, Ni~ya. The two of you had been caught red-handed. In your apartment; as just you had already guessed when Ni~ya hinting at it previously.



You thought you would never forget the look on your lover's face when he unlocked the door and walked in on you two...not actually having sex yet...but still...bad and damaging enough.



The memory of what had happened next is a blur to you, but at the back of your mind one thing is certain: everything had gone straight to Hell, to all of you.



Out of anger, your lover trapped both you in one of the alternative realities which is in his possession. Out of anger, he had stripped you of your daily life, your friends and family, removed you from the only world you know.



Although you had met Ruka in your own world--the human's one, but you never knew he isn't really from there. His world belongs somewhere else entirely.



You were helpless, trapped in a maze of intertwining hallways and empty rooms. With no way out.



What you didn't know is, Ni~ya had also been taken into the same world and became the playmate of Ruka's two 'friends'.



What you didn't know is, the rest of the world had also gone to Hell at almost the same time.



While you were lost in the otherside, oblivious to what was going on to your world and your city. Wars broke out, regional battles quickly spread out to claim more lands, more lives as its threads drifting across the globe.



The entire world was at war, livelihoods were destroyed, it was neighbors against neighbors, strangers against strangers. Even siblings against siblings, parents against children. The world had gone crazy, then with it, the civilization as we known it fell apart.



Soon, sooner than anyone could have expected, most of the global population had been wiped out, what little left are now hiding beneath underground shelters or secret hideouts, with cities and towns crumbling down from above.



It is utter Hell.



This time humanity had finally maimed itself beyond recovery, whilst a few handful of survivors got spirited away into the different alternative realities and keep alive there by the supernatural creatures.



You are one of those 'lucky' ones, so is your friend Ni~ya. You are both blissfully oblivious when the doom of humanity arrived and claimed everyone else.



The world as you knew it had long come to an end.



"Nothing is behind it." Ruka had said to you, and turns out he wasn't lying.



Because the world beyond this door had long been reduced to nothing.



***



The weight of your regained memories nearly crushes you down. So it's the truth about your missing past, the explanation of why you had returned to your own world only to find it is in ruins. You remember why.



Many of the normal laws of physic don't work well in the alternative realities. Time also doesn't move the same way in Ruka's world like it does in your world.



When you are being trapped in a place where time doesn't move forward, so after years--decades of the world's destruction, you still remain the same. It makes you feel like laughing, the whole human world had long been laid wasted by the humankind themselves, but you are the last living people to know!



Don't forget about Ni~ya. He doesn't know, neither. They must have also wiped this part of his memory too, otherwise the blond man would not have insisted so strongly on escaping.



During your imprisonment, you haven't aged, you haven't gotten sick, you don't even have to eat to survive. For the first time, you realize you haven't eaten anything ever since the first time you woke up in your cell. Yet you still live, you can still walk around and function like business as usual.



How could you be so blind? Normal people can't function without costuming food for that long, at least not in the real world.



You didn't realize you have sank down to your knees, covering your face with your both hands as the full weight of memories hits you with its full force, not until you feel Ruka's presence, feeling his hands placed on your shoulders.



"What had you done to Ni~ya?" Quivering, you ask.



He merely shrugs. "Yomi and Hitsugi took a liking of him."



His words are so casual sounding, as if they really can explain everything away.



"What? But they are..." torturing him.



"I know what you're thinking, but believe me, those two haven't done anything your little friend doesn't want them to do. He's being looked after pretty well."



"The same like you how you had looked after me?" You are shocked by the malice and bitterness in your own voice, but you don't bother to stop yourself, tear is running down your cheeks freely.



"I...never want you to find out..." Ruka look sad when uttering those words; the sadness makes him look...strangely fragile and...human.



Does he mean he never wants you to find out the world had ended? Or does he mean he never wants you to realize he had wiped your memory, or he had left you wandering aimlessly like a ghost in his infinite maze?



Regardless of the answer, what is done, is done.



“You...” You choke at your own words when the final piece of missing memory flashes through your mind. “It is not the first time you wipe my memory...”



Ruka did not say anything, but the expression in his eyes is enough to let you know you are correct. The same thing had happened not once, but many times already. You tried to escape, sometime Ruka caught you before you can find the only door back to your world and wiped your memory, other times you made it back to the real world only to be devastated by what you saw here, until Ruka caught up with you and made you forget what you had (re)discovered.



Eventually, your lover pleaded. "Will you...forgive me, just one more time, Sakito?"



Will you give Ruka one more chance? Your lover had been selfish, stealing you away from your world without your consent, but hadn't you been just as selfish in your own way, if not worse?



In his way, Ruka has been taking care of you, just like he had once claimed he would. He has been keeping you alive when there's nothing left in the real world, but you are not certain whether to thank him or to hate him for that.



You know you must make a choice, and time is running out for you.



The End.

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