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Book Review: A Great and Terrible Beauty, by Libba Bray

Premise took from Sixteen-year-old Gemma has had an unconventional upbringing in India, until the day she foresees her mother's death in a black, swirling vision that turns out to be true. Sent back to England, she is enrolled at Spence, a girls' academy with a mysterious burned-out East Wing. There Gemma is snubbed by powerful Felicity, beautiful Pippa, and even her own dumpy roommate Ann, until she blackmails herself and Ann into the treacherous clique. Gemma is distressed to find that she has been followed from India by Kartik, a beautiful young man who warns her to fight off the visions. Nevertheless, they continue, and one night she is led by a child-spirit to find a diary that reveals the secrets of a mystical Order. The clique soon finds a way to accompany Gemma to the other-world realms of her visions "for a bit of fun" and to taste the power they will never have as Victorian wives, but they discover that the delights of the realms are overwhelmed by a menace they cannot control. Gemma is left with the knowledge that her role as the link between worlds leaves her with a mission to seek out the "others" and rebuild the Order. A Great and Terrible Beauty is an impressive first book in what should prove to be a fascinating trilogy.

Pre-review: I want to read this book because I'd heard a lot of good things about it, but after reading this review (…), I'm not sure anymore.

Note: I read the Chinese translation of this book, and I'm not sure whether the translator had mistakenly make the Main Character (a young lady from the 1890s Victorian era) sound like an air-headed modern teenager, or was it Libba Bray's own fault for giving her own MC such kind of misplaced voice.  

Actual review here:

First off, this book is Nothing Special.

Well...A Great and Terrible Beauty isn't the worst book I've ever read, comparing with A Discovery of Witches (which I'm sure I'm going to Do Not Finish) it's highly enjoyable. It's a quick, easy read and it doesn't charge you too much brain cells, but I still won't recommend it to people who've already read a few paranormal YA novels before, because the story really is Nothing Special.

First, let me tell you I needed to keep telling myself to calm down when reading this book, and that's the only reason why I managed to avoid throwing a bitch fit during the reading process. Why? Here're a few reasons:

(1) The story begins with the MC arguing with her mother on the street of Bombay, India; an Indian colonial city at that time, and said MC had been behaving in an rather disrespectful manner toward the local people and her very Indian housekeeper.

Well...I actually needed to put the book aside and take some deep breath and reminded myself the story is set in the 1890s, and it probably was common for the white people to feel superior toward the locals, but still...the MC had really been quite a bitch toward her housekeeper, whom she had known for most of her life and acted as the MC's caretaker.

I'm disgusted.  

Plus, it goes without saying that once the MC left India behind, not once did the MC remember the housekeeper, not once.

Edited27/02/2015: well, a helpful reviewer came up to say the MC, Gemma, did think of her Indian housekeeper for a few times, but I'm sorry, I really was unable to find it in the Chinese translation I read.

(2) Somehow, a British citizen who wasn't born with a single drop of Indian blood in her, and who also wasn't a Hinduist, had adopted Goddess Kali, the goddess of destruction, as her guardian goddess.

I'm disgusted, as an non-Hinduist, when I visited India some years ago, for more than once I wasn't allowed to come anywhere near some of the shrines within the temples, because those important shrines are for believers only. But it's okay for the MC, a non-Hinduist, to appoint Kali to be her guardian goddess!?

That's bullshit.  

(3) There's also an Indian young man who serves as the love interest, I don't have much to say about him because he's only there to be the mysterious, handsome guy; but at least this guy is a shade better than what we had gotten in this godforsaken Tiger's Curse book.

(4) Last but not least, the MC had been a little bitch toward her mother.

I'm aware of the fact that girls from Victorian era probably weren't supposed to be worldly and knowledgeable about things outside of their families and their social circle, instead they were expected to be sheltered and naive in order to keep their 'innocence', but still.

Thankfully, the story moves from Bombay to London after Chapter 4 or so, but I'm still faced by other problems:

(5)There's magic, secret societies, demons(?) and otherworldly dimensions in the story, but the world building is as weak as what we had gotten from the Prophecy of the Sisters series by Michelle Zink. In another word: empty stupid make-believe.

(6) Once the MC arrived to the boarding school for young ladies, we get the complete Mean Girls treatment.

(7) Supposedly the MC befriended three other girls in the boarding school, but I can never believe those girls had shared deep enough friendship and trust to a point they agreed to keep an important secret together.

(8) School girls doing witchcraft in the boarding school. *facepalms* I know they were only 16 or so years old, but still.

(9) ********************plot spoiler****************** After reunited with her dead mother in the otherworld, the MC continues to argue with her mother instead of listening to her advice.*************end of spoiler************ The MC never learns.

(10) The ending...bad things happened to the MC and her friends, and I'm not even sorry, instead I'm aloof and don't give a damn about whether those girls live or die. Why should I care when there had already been people forewarning the MC and her friends: "Don't do this! Don't go there! It's dangerous!" but they still do it anyway?

My suggestion: this book doesn't worth your hard-earned money, borrow it.
Book Review: Forgive My Fins, by Tera Lynn Childs

Premise from Seventeen-year-old Lily, half-mermaid and half-human, has been living on land and attending high school, where she develops a crush on a boy but is afraid to tell him of her true destiny as the ruler of the undersea kingdom of Thalassinia.

Pre-review before I finish the book: I know I'm at least 12 years older than the targeted audience but still...I can and will appreciate good teenagers' dramas. However! The stupidity and immaturity of the Main Character really is not endearing (I kept rolling my eyes at a lot of things said MC had said and done)...I'd been 17 years old once and I don't think teenagers at this age are that bad.

thoughts after I'd finished reading:

This time I can't even say 'Oh what a great big disappointment!' because I'd expected this book to be sucky even before I turned the first page. Why? Because I'd already read Tera Lynn Childs' YA paranormal novels which are based on the Medusa myths, and the two books I've managed to read aren't doing great neither.

See my short reviews for both Medusa myths retelling books here:……

This time, instead of Medusa and Greek myths, we have mermaid myth and a Little Mermaid retelling(?) style of teenage school drama/romance drama (not my favorite genres, but I was still willing to give it a shot).

The good things about Forgive My Fins are that (1) it's a quick and easy read, (2) the tone is humorous and (3) some of the romantic plots are in fact interestingly written. However, there are many flaws in the story's characters, plots and setting, those flaws just kept me rolling my eyes in disbelief:

(1) According to the author, there's a kingdom of merfolks somewhere near the American coastline, and somehow, the citizens of this ancient, magical kingdom under the sea happen to be able to all speak ENGLISH. *sighs*

(2) Lily, the female Main Character, is hopelessly stupid, boy-crazed and immature, which might have been acceptable if she's only an ordinary teenager. You see, I don't expect every single teenager to be smart and mature, but...*groans* Goodness! I'd once been a teenager but I don't remember being that clueless and stupid like Lily!

Furthermore, the real problem is,somehow our main character Lily is supposed to be the heir of the kingdom of merfolks and is expected to rule the kingdom as Queen in the future.

(3) the love triangle: I don't even want to go into the details... all I can say is that someone should have told Lily how silly it is to think you are going to spend the rest of your life with the first guy you had a crush on when you're 17 years old.

(4) According to the author, there's a supposed 'rule' about mermaids/mermen can only bond with one soul mate. However, **********spoiler*************turns out the merfolks can break off the bond with their King's permission, yada yada.**********end of spoiler************ It's not good to break the  rules of your own fictional world, seriously.

Don't get me wrong, I can appreciate romance dramas among teenagers *when they are well written*, I can appreciate girls who care about dresses, boyfriends and dating. I mean, there's nothing wrong about wanting to hook up with a handsome guy and daydreaming about it! However, Ms. Child doesn't have neither the writing skill nor the insight to create a meaningful, cute, light-hearted story out of the material of her own choosing.
Book review: Beautiful You, by Chuck Palahniuk

Premise took from From the author of Fight Club, the classic portrait of the damaged contemporary male psyche, now comes this novel about the apocalyptic marketing possibilities of female pleasure. Sisters will be doing it for themselves. And doing it. And doing it. And doing it some more . . .

Penny Harrigan is a low-level associate in a big Manhattan law firm with an apartment in Queens and no love life at all. So it comes as a great shock when she finds herself invited to dinner by one C. Linus Maxwell, aka "Climax-Well," a software mega-billionaire and lover of the most gorgeous and accomplished women on earth. After dining at Manhattan's most exclusive restaurant, he whisks Penny off to a hotel suite in Paris, where he proceeds, notebook in hand, to bring her to previously undreamed-of heights of orgasmic pleasure for days on end. What's not to like?

Wow. Oh, dear

Is Mr. P trying to make fun of 50 Shades of Grey here?

If it's what Mr. P is up to, then I'd say: "Go ahead!"

Actual review starts here:

I Do Not Finish both Rant and Damned, so believe me, I'm not someone who would blindly praise Chuck Palahniuk just because he's one of my most favorite authors. But I was surprised to find myself keep turning pages when reading Beautiful You and enjoying the entire book quite well, despite of the negative reviews, low rating and people bitterly and loudly express their distaste toward this book.

However, I can still see why people do not like this book and how this book isn't for everyone.

Still, here's my advises:

First, remember this story is a satire!

And the jokes are on consumerism and the rape culture pop culture, more than they're on women.

Let's repeat with me! It's a satire!

Let's repeat again: It's a satire!

Secondly, don't let the low rating and negative reviews discourage you!

Thirdly, although the ending part of the story is on the 'What. The. Fuck!?' side and none of the characters are likable, still I'm willing to give this book good remarks for its sense of dark humor, the insight and the over-the-top hilarious plots,if nothing else.

Last but not least, I understand why many people might find Beautiful You offensive and distasteful, but please bear in mind Mr. P had written the things mentioned below in his other novels:

(a) a man had his gut pumped out when he tried to jerk himself off in a swimming pool.

(b) both men and women trying their hardest to get laid.

(c) both men and women doing many, many outlandish and silly things because of their sex drive.

So, please don't burn Mr. P at a stake just because this time around he puts the sex jokes on the womenfolks instead of the menfolks.

Helpful reviews by other reviewers:……

I also saw other reviewers bringing up the question: "Would women really forsake their lives and all their hard earned rights for the sake of sexual pleasure?" That's a good question, and regretfully my personal honest answer to this "Yes! A thousand times yes! Because there are too many women who don't even appreciate the rights they're now enjoying, and ignorance really knows no bounds!"

Mr. P has every reason to be worried for the womenfolks, we have every reason to be worried for our own female fellows. And tell me, how am I supposed to keep my hope up when faced by this kind of stupidity and ignorance!?

Photo from Women Against Feminism Facebook:…

'Fifty Shades of Grey' sets record at box office

and those Twilight-moms BS:…

Need I say more?
Book Review: Nothing by Janne Teller

Premise took from When Pierre-Anthon realizes there is no meaning to life, the seventh-grader leaves his classroom, climbs a tree, and stays there. His classmates cannot make him come down, not even by pelting him with rocks. So to prove to Pierre-Anthon that life has meaning, the children decide to give up things of importance. The pile starts with the superficial—a fishing rod, a new pair of shoes. But as the sacrifices become more extreme, the students grow increasingly desperate to get Pierre-Anthon down, to justify their belief in meaning. Sure to prompt intense thought and discussion, Nothing—already a treasured work overseasl—is not to be missed

I think Nothing by Janne Teller is a book which should be placed in every school library for mature-enough children and teenagers to read. Yes, it should be placed next to Lord of the Flies, The Chocolate War or even The Heart of Darkness, just for the sake of serving as an eye-opener for all the kids and teenagers out there.

We adults have been cocooned the kids with too many lies and false belief, it's only fair to expose them to the cold, harsh truth once in a while, just for the sake of saving them from growing up to be some mindless creatures. We owe the kids that much.

Though I am not saying this book is as great as Lord of the Flies, no it isn't. Saying this would be the same like saying The Hunger Games is as great as Lord of the Flies. However, I'm very much impressed by how purely logical and believable the main events in the story have played out and how the children reacted to a fellow classmate suddenly refused to go to school and yelled that their lives, are in fact meaningless.

I think what had happened to the children and the boy who was the first one to realize life is meaningless shows a lot of insight to human nature and the cruelty and stupidity of both the people and the world itself (and that's the reason why I think every child should read this book): what would happen when a person suddenly realizes everything they have always believed to be meaningful is in fact meaningless? What would happen when a person suddenly realizes all the rules and norms everyone else is following are in fact stupid and empty? What would happen when a person suddenly manages to see what everyone else believes is important is also in fact meaningless? And what would happen when this person chooses to shout his new insight out at the top of his lungs so everyone else has to hear this unpleasant and unwelcome discovery?

I think many of us can foresee what would happen in the end.

It's a worthy book but I do think it could have been even better; plus I'm unconvinced that no adult (not even the boy's own father) in the book had ever stepped in or tried to do something when a boy refused to go to school *for months*.
Link to the fic’s banner, created by Jun:…


Part 13: An unexpected invitation

Tora yawned. He was tired and he could feel how sore the muscles across his shoulders were, and how stirred his nape and his lower back had become. Having so much to work with in the past few days, staying up late and falling asleep on his desk obviously didn’t agree with his physical well-being.

It was late into a weekday afternoon. Tora was in the same café he and Miyavi had gone to together not a week ago; the café near their campus, but today he went there alone. After his classes came to an end, the raven-haired student had stationed himself at the far corner at the back of the café, sitting on one of the comfortable, spacey armchairs, typing with his eyes hardly leaving the screen of his laptop, which he placed on top of the low wooden table in front of him. He had been typing with an opened book balancing on his laps and a cup of cooling coffee placed next to his laptop for close to two hours. He still had one fortnight to go before he had to turn in his assignment and he must focus on finishing the last few paragraphs, and then he would have to do the final checking...

The third year student stopped keying in words after the last paragraph was finally settled. Looking up from the laptop’s screen, Tora allowed himself to sink back to his seat and close his tired eyes. It had taken him so much work, and now he was glad that the ending of his hard work was finally in sight.  He would have a small break before he had to start doing the checking.

“Mind if I take a seat?”

Out of the blue, Tora heard a voice asking him a question. Instantly, the raven-haired man snapped his eyes open, only to find a familiar face looking down at him, smiling. Slowly, Tora straightened himself to sit more properly than before, replying, “Sure…”

The other man’s smile widened as he took his own seat across the low coffee table, at the direct opposite of Tora. The other student was holding a cup of coffee in one of his hands, which he chose to place at his side of the table after he sat down.

“Shou-san...what a surprise.”
“Drop the honorific, if you don’t mind,” replied the blonde quickly with a smile.

Tora merely shrugged, for he didn't expect to run into the other student near the campus. In fact, he didn’t expect to see Shou so soon after that...strange encounter in the corridor just the other night.

The raven head still didn’t how to make of what he had witnessed in the other night. However, there was no reason for him to be aloof or unfriendly towards a fellow classmate when he was merely requesting to take a seat around the same table.

For a while, they just sat there, with Shou sipping his freshly poured coffee, whilst Tora staring at his cooled one without touching it. Sometimes, he could feel Shou’s eyes on him. He had to retreat himself from looking up. At the back of Tora’s mind, he was almost certain Shou was looking at the first aid tape tagged to the side of his face, near his neck. His minor injury had drawn a bit of unexpected attention amongst his peers, and he had to tell his concerned classmates that he had an accident shaving whenever one of them came up with the question.

The third year student almost expected Shou to bring the topic up just like everyone else, but when Shou made his move to open a conversation, he said nothing about his injury.

“You look quite worn, Tora-san.”

Tora shrugged, “Schoolwork, you know how it’s. And just Tora is fine.”

To that, Shou gave a nod in acknowledge.

The raven head noticed that Shou didn’t carry any book or folder with him, and so far, the other student hadn’t mentioned anything about how he was doing with his own assignment. Therefore, Tora guessed that the blond student might very well be done with his schoolwork, whilst the rest of the students were still struggling to finish before the deadline approached.

Tora didn’t know Shou so well, but he figured his conjunction would suit the latter just fine. The other student always carried himself with so much confidence, as he always had everything under his control. Like he was so used to things going his way, and people listening to what he had to say.

Throughout the school years, Tora had observed that Shou could be arrogant at times, but goodness; he must at least admit his classmate had reasons to be prideful. Shou was good-looking, smart, popular amongst his peers, always managed to get good grades; finally yet importantly, it was rumoured amongst students that he also came from a well-to-do family. So yes, Shou could be full of himself at times, but for most parts, he had managed to avoid making himself look like an offensive prick.

“I must admit I’m a bit...shocked,” Shou chuckled lowly, “For I’d never expected to see our fearless Amano Shinji being weighted down by an assignment!”
“Well actually, I’m just like everyone else, struggling to keep his head above water,” Tora shrugged at Shou’s remark, his eyebrow twitching at the use of his full name. Moreover, he was by no mean ‘fearless’ whatsoever, “That’s life.”

At the back of his mind, the raven-haired youth was a bit surprised to see Shou being talkative and...friendly towards him today. They were never particularly close; they nodded at each other when they ran into one another on the hallways. They would also talk when they were having their classes or doing group projects, but the interaction between them more or less just ended here. Tora was certain today it was the first time he and Shou had ever sat down together and engaged in an actual conversation, outside of class and schoolwork.

“But you never strike me as just an ‘everyone else’ person, Tora.”
“What do you mean?” This time, Tora slipped his book off his laps and straightened himself. He could sense something was coming up…
“You’re not like the others, are you?” Shou replied calmly, “In fact, you always strike me as someone who can grip complicated concepts, and has a deeper understanding of how things actually work.”

Was he being praised by Shou, of all people? Tora frowned; he wasn’t sure what Shou was getting at.

“If by ‘complicated concepts’, you meant our schoolwork—”
“We both know how good you’re at schoolwork,” Shou interrupted him in a flat tone, “But I meant more than that. I meant the concepts they have taught us in classes, and beyond that.”
“Huh?” Tora did not enjoy making himself look dull in front of the other student. Still, he was painfully aware of how idiotic his responses must have sounded so far. He couldn’t help it. Because so far, he still had not a damn idea about what Shou was trying to get at.
‘Having a strong interest in the subject does result in better understanding on the subjects’, right?”

At first, Tora didn’t realise it; but seconds later, it dawned on him that Shou was quoting lines from his previous presentation during class. The blonde was definitely saying it on purpose.

“You know, I’m very impressed about what you have said about fear in our class, Tora san.” Shou said with a smile.

The blonde flashed him another smile. Was it only him, or was it Shou smiling way too often than necessary? Although the other student didn’t seem to notice the slightly sceptical expression on Tora’s face.

“I think it will be great if we can meet up outside of classes and share what we’ve learnt so far. I really think…”

Then, Shou paused and licked his lip. He looked almost nervous as he continued, “I actually believe it will be...beneficial for both of us.”

Tora moved his hand to close his laptop all together. On a subconscious level, he sensed that Shou was going to reveal his intention—regardless what it really was. Therefore, he would better pay full attention to the rest of the conversation.

“What I am trying to say is, what our lecturers are teaching us in classes, those materials they give us for studying. They just look not...challenging enough.”

Tora kept quiet. He had always known Shou could be arrogant at times. Still, it was a bit startling to hear the blond man indirectly state that he thought schoolwork was...beneath him. Although if Tora were to be absolutely honest, he would have to admit sometimes he did feel the same way.

“Strange to find so many people actually think psychology is all about mysteries and excitement, when in reality, what they are teaching is, all so ordinary.”

Tora understood what Shou was referring to. Whenever he told people he was a psychology major student, people tended to react in bewilderment. In the mind of the general public, psychology seemed to be the mixture of magic, mind reading and fortune telling. Therefore, it was easy to believe those who studied this subject were some kind of mind reader or witch doctor. As though psychology students all went to college to learn how to read minds, or do other magical tricks.

However in reality, students of psychology faculty normally would be guided to study the basic principles that formed what we knew as psychology, its history, different theories of the masters, etc. Basically, the students were expected to learn to know how a human’s mind would likely to work under different situations and emotion.

In addition, some of the students would soon find out how a human’s mind would work seemed to be in fact a lot more predictable and…boring than any of them would have expected. When a student managed to come up with this realisation, it was usually when the teaching of his study became...uninteresting. If they were to move up to learn about complicated ideas in the field of psychology, they would have to reach outside of the limitation of their schoolwork, reaching out for the larger territory outside of lectures.

“What they are teaching us in classes, they are kind of dull when you think about it, right?”

Eventually, Tora allowed himself to give a small nod, “What word you suggest as the alternative?”

“Let’s say...I suggest we do group study outside of classes? Looks like we can learn a lot from one another.”

Tora couldn’t help raising an eyebrow. As unexpected as Shou’s suggestion was, the idea of studying together with the blond star student still had its own appeal. If only Tora could figure out what Shou was really after...

"You have said group study...then, how many more students are you going to invite? What subject do you have in mind?”
“What I want to investigate is fear, Tora,” Shou replied slowly, his voice barely above a whisper, as though he didn’t want anyone else to hear what he was saying, “And there won’t be any more student in this project.”
“Only the two of us?”
“Only you and me,” the blond one answered without a pause.
“Why?” The raven head couldn’t help asking.

“We’re going to act as researchers, and we will invite other people—other students to take part in this project, as the test subjects. We will interview them and learn from them.”
“Just like we would learn from each other, right?” Tora shifted on his seat subconsciously, the way his fellow classmate referring other students as ‘test subjects’ made him feel a bit strange.
“Correct,” Shou answered without hesitation, and he almost looked pleased due to the fact that Tora was catching up so fast.
“You said that you are going to use fear as your subject—”
“That’s why I need your help,” Shou cut in smoothly, “We all know how knowledgeable you are on this particular subject, especially after hearing your presentation.”

The raven-haired student must admit these words were ego-stroking enough to hear. Here was Shou, a straight As student of his own right, sitting in front of him, praising (though subtly) him for his knowledge, asking for his assistance.  However, the only problem was that at the back of his mind, Tora couldn’t believe Shou was coming up with his suggestion for the reasons he had previously mentioned. Something was telling him there was more to Shou’s offer than the latter had let on. He must be up to something...but what? If Shou wanted something from him, why wouldn’t he just ask instead of coming up with such kind of unusual proposal?

Running a nervous hand through his hair, Tora said, “It’s great to hear you are also interested in what I’m studying and you want us to cooperate in order to further our study, Shou…”

“There’s nothing surprising about it. Fear is an intriguing subject in our field of study,” Shou shook his head slowly, “...and great minds think alike, do you agree?”
“...I suppose so?” Moistening his lips, Tora replied, not used to Shou’s manner of speech.
“So, what do you think about my suggestion, Tora?”

The raven-haired student then replied, “First...thanks for your invitation, and if you were interested in doing a project together, I’m in.”

Perhaps it wouldn’t hurt to play along for the time being, and try to find out what Shou was really up to later. A smile spread across Shou’s handsome face when he heard Tora’s reply. Next, he reached out a hand and offered it to the other student for shaking, which Tora accepted, only after a brief moment of hesitation.

“So…” After they finished the hand shaking, Shou’s smile only seemed brighter as he spoke, “When do you think we should start?”

Before Tora could reply, his mobile phone started to ring without warning. Apologising under his breath, Tora stood up and moved away from the table to answer the call.

“Amano-kun!” The unknown caller shouted through the phone in a panic voice.

It took a second for Tora to recognise the caller’s voice, “Dr. Camui!?”

He was utterly shocked by the psychiatrist’s call. He knew Dr. Camui had his phone number, but the doctor had never used it to contact him before. Usually, it was Tora who made the contact, back when he was doing research under Dr. Camui’s wing.

“Can you come to meet me, now?”

The third year student was also shocked to hear the doctor speaking in such a rushed, panic-struck tone; as if he was in shock and could barely think straight. Something must be very wrong...

“I am not sure…” Tora then glanced back at Shou, who was staring at him from where he sat, the casualness and the smile had gone out from his face, “I’m with someone else at the moment—”
“Okay, forget about what I have said, I shouldn’t have called—” Suddenly, Dr. Camui’s tone changed, his voice peaked in frustration and the disappointment was clear in his voice.

Turning his back towards Shou, Tora asked under his breath, “What’s wrong, doc?”

Over the phone, the third year student could hear the doctor suck in a deep breath before speaking again.

“Can I trust you, Amano-kun?”

Tora closed his eyes briefly before reopening them and said, “You can trust me.”

“Say you are not going to tell anyone else what I’ve said to you up to this point. Tell me you won’t!”
“I won’t tell anyone about the conversation between us. I’m not going to tell on you.”

Since Tora did want Dr. Camui to keep talking, so he also knew it would be best to reassure the older man as much as he could.

“They’re after me—”
“Wait, who’s after you?”
“The police! They...What you said is true, the police...they showed up and started poking around—” All at once, Dr. Camui started speaking in a rather incoherent manner.
“What? Why would they do that?”
“They think I know something about the disappearance of Sakamoto-kun, but I swear I don’t know anything!”
“Are you sure?”
“I don’t know what have become of him after I last saw him! And for goodness’ sake, he disappeared only after he stopped showing up for appointment weeks ago! I swear I don’t know anything that will help to find him! I don’t know anything useful to the police!”
“Wait, Dr. Camui, please calm down!” Tora could hardly believe he would be the one to tell the older man to stay calm. Whatever the police had done or said, it must have frightened the good doctor.
“Perhaps the police…” The raven head dropped his voice when he uttered the word ‘police’, “...was only doing some routine questioning—”
“No! You don’t understand! They meant it—”

In their previous meeting, Tora had wondered aloud in front of Dr. Camui that the police might pay the good doctor a visit in hope to uncover some clue about the disappearance of Sakamoto Takashi. By now, he knew that his prediction had, unfortunately for Dr. Camui, come true.  

Though a newfound sense of doubt began to sink in as soon as he spoke those words. At the back of his mind, Tora wondered was Dr. Camui truly an innocent bystander, who only happened to unluckily attract attention from the police? Why would the psychiatrist react so strongly if he really had nothing to hide?

His mind lingered back to his last meeting with Dr. Camui in his office. Could he really believe the psychiatrist hadn’t held something back during their conversation? Tora knew he would only be kidding himself if he believed the doctor had been entirely honest with him.

Perhaps the police thought just the same when they chatted with Dr. Camui, perhaps this was the reason why they kept asking questions even after the doctor insisted that he knew nothing of his patient’s whereabouts. Perhaps Dr. Camui did know something about Sakamoto and the reason why he had winded up vanishing, but he was keeping that information secret.

Tora was shocked by his own thoughts. He would not want to believe Dr. Camui, his mentor, an older man whom he thought he could call a friend, was a shadowy character, with some muddy involvement with a missing person case. Hadn’t Dr. Camui always been kind and attentive to his patients and co-workers? Hadn’t the doctor always been fiery about his profession, and had always been willing to share his knowledge?

Running his fingers roughly through his hair, Tora tried to think of something soothing to say to the older man over the phone, “Doc, please calm down. If you have no valuable information to offer to the police, just tell them so. They will come around in the end when they can’t find anything—”

“Of course they won’t find anything! I’ve already gotten rid of those notes—”

Alarm bell rang through Tora’s mind, “Gotten rid of what?”

Then, there was an awful stretch of silence expanding through both sides of the line. Finally, Dr. Camui spoke again, “I shouldn’t have called.”

“Sorry for bothering you, Amano-kun. I overreacted.”
“I’m sorry; please forget everything I’ve just said. Please.”

Before Tora could response, the line went dead. Dr. Camui had already hanged up the phone.  The line was cut off so rapidly to a point that the conversation he had with his former mentor felt very surreal, but after lowering his mobile phone from his ear, Tora reminded himself he didn’t hear wrongly, he did hear what the doctor had said in a rush, out of impulse.

Dr. Camui had mentioned some notes, and police was questioning the doctor over the disappearance of Sakamoto Takashi. In the end, the doctor had let it slip that he had ‘gotten rid of’ those notes.

to be continued.
Imprisoned part 13

Title: Imprisoned

Author: junakabisque and vampire_kiki>

Genre: AU, twisted.

Pairing: ??/Saga

Rating: Overall R

Disclaimer: I own my imagination.

Summary: Sakamoto Takashi has no clue how he could end up being held captive, let alone who has done that to him…and for what reasons. Every second that ticks by, he hopes for someone to rescue him from his confinement. Will there even be anyone notice that he’s been missing?

Warning: None.

The rest of the series:…


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Hi everyone:

You will find Jrock fanart, fanfics and a lot of Yaoi in here among many other things, some of the deviations are NC-17 for one reason or another.

There’s chance that you might not like what you see here, so bear in mind that whenever you click and look at the deviations it is all up to your own decision, no one forces you to read/look at them at gunpoint. Understand?

PS: if you don’t even know what ‘Yaoi’ is, then I won’t suggest you to check my deviations.

Current Residence: a sad place called reality
Favourite genre of music: rock
Favourite style of art: manga, does it count?*winks*
MP3 player of choice: some made in China thing, cheap and useable...^^;
Wallpaper of choice: i sucked posting wallpaper!
Favourite cartoon character: Johnny from JTHM, does he count?
I finished the new chapter of my Despairsray fanfic.............but somehow I had decided to separate it from the main series and give it a new title.

And right now I can't figure out the new title. =__= 

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